I have been intruiged by you for a few weeks, and this article was kind of a trigger to finally hand over full control to you at the beginning of this month. And I appreciate for giving me the chance to prove myself.

I had bad experiences in the past, very bad. Many years ago, in my early kinky years, when i started to explore, I began having ‘sessions’. It took me awhile to fully understand myself, learning that single sessions would never satisfy my deepest inner desires. The desire to fully submit to a beautiful and intelligent woman.

But I got hurt alot. When you open up and make the commitment to fully submit to someone special, you become very vulnerable. I know the pain you are talking about, when subs of you just ran away. I experienced it the other way around, being left alone in the cold, suddenly without guidance, never knowing the reason why she left. It hurts alot …

Last time was two years ago, it went on for three months, i gave myself fully to her and suddenly nothing, disappered into thin air. I was crushed, got heavily depressed and hit rock bottom. A few months ago I was finally able to get myself out of that hole, finally strong enough to get my life back together. I thought I’ll never fully submit to anyone ever again.

… and here we are now. The more I read and hear from you, the more I trust you. Hearing about your pain how subs suddenly left, made me feel a personal connection. Step by step I want to learn again how to let go of that control, to fully submit and trust you to catch me and guide me. You are the first person in two years, the first Goddess I feel I can trust, and let myself fall.

humbly,
Peter