Explore the MANY faces of Female Domination
On Going Total Control
Introduction
Single call fantasies for orgasm release are entertaining, fun and serve your sexual needs. Masturbation is a necessary and healthy part of sexual fulfillment. Phone fantasy is a wonderful tool to seduce your imagination and sexually interact without a commitment or hassle. But what if you need more than a quick orgasm?
Dominance and submission is a dynamic where two opposites come to together to experience each other and within that experience find balance. It can stimulate so many emotions; fear, comfort, guilt, freedom, arousal and intense highs and lows. As with any relationship it requires two healthy humans to engage in the dynamic as they carefully establish a foundation of trust. Because it’s taboo and surfaces feelings of guilt it’s often not supported as a “real” relationship. Without the proper steps it’s easy to become overwhelmed and before you know it you’re purging and running away only to find yourself back in the same place six months later. It’s part of you just like its part of me. It’s not going to go away.
What if I could show you how to explore the very aspects of deep submission safely and without interrupting your already existing environment? Are you married and unable to introduce your wife to your sexual/emotional/spiritual needs? Do you worry that maybe you’ll go too far, spend too much money and that you’ll find yourself lost and lose everything? The way I see it you’re already tore and realizing you need to somehow figure this out.
I could spend my time collecting your money by the minute and be done with it. Let’s face it, I’m a good phone actress regardless of the content and although I love my job BUT it is still my work. I provide a service to you. But I also realize that I too, just like you, have needs and desires. So what could be better then somehow combining these so that we both get what we need? We both know it’s sexual but it’s also something so much more. It’s a journey that can be beneficial for both of us. If it isn’t constructive then it’s useless.
I require a commitment and total control. No two relationships are alike; however the general structure and guidelines may seem the same. Therefore we could have almost any type of relationship that involves me being in control; however the general rules are always the same. It can be a seductive mild interaction or a more intense femdom relationship. The actual program and details are private and only available to those that pass the original initiation. Below are some of the general rules.
1) First call is an interview and must be at least 30 min. During this call we explore the reality of you entering the program.
2) You must be able to call at least 2 times a month. You are taught to budget and make a financial plan that gives you the ability to do this.
3) Gifts and tributes are expected. It’s not the amount or item but the level of appreciation for me taking my free time to teach and train you. In addition I also expect good service. Tribute can also be work exchange that helps me train others or in building better programs to build MY WORLD.
4) You give me complete control over your cock (or clitty) no touching or orgasm without my permission. This is centered around reward and punishment. If you do a good job you’ll be granted rewards. If you fail me you’ll be punished.
5) I am here to guide you not serve you. You must search for ways to please me. You must get and keep my attention. Therefore you must create a username and report in the proper forum at www.enchantrixempire.com you create a new thread using your name and posting your daily reports. If you are married or unable to post daily then you’ll do this in detail at least 3 times a week. You are also required to read other threads from those in ongoing training to learn how to serve me better.
6) I enjoy total control. This means what you eat, drink, wear, etc. Even if our relationship is a sexy cougar/boy toy I expect control IF you want me to enjoy this journey. This is included in your reports.
7) You will comply with every order. If for some reason you cannot then you will beg to be punished. Don’t ever tell me “But Goddess I’m not into that.” This answer will get you expelled for good. If it’s a limit then it better be because you just can’t emotionally or physically. In this case you beg your ass off to be punished.
8) I make accessible to you. When you email me I get an alert on my blackberry and unless I am on a call or sleeping you’ll get a prompt reply. Within reason I expect the same from you. Also there’s never room for excuses. If you’re not sure you ask.
In closing I would like to say that this program was created because I sense a true need for some. It’s not for everyone and that’s cool. My involvement in this will not affect my standard fantasy calls with those not in the program.. You can still fill out the pre-session questionnaire and I’m happy to help you explore the perfect fantasy.
Added 05-25-2011 I will now have some of my ongoing pets post reports, musings and request here on ongoing training. Everyone is welcome to ask questions or make comment.
If you are ready for the total control program email to arrange a call. 1-800-601-6975 adults 18 + 2.50 per min
Note: If you have already begun my training I expect an essay proving to me that you understand above and why I should select you. Email this to me along with your yahoo id to Josephine@enchantrixempire.com
Humiliated Sissy
Janes Guide
Goddess Josephine
I have just knelt naked before you. Removing all my clothes gives me a sense of my vulnerability in your presence. I am aware of what your are wearing and that makes me as horny as hell – no need to do any warm ups today all stands proud before me. I feel the coolness of your boots on my back, but also feel the warmth of your upper thighs on my shoulders and the back of my head. I smell your perfume, but there is something else mingled with it – a seductive sweetness and realise it is your own natural smell – a beautiful musk that sinks into my inner fabric and causes yourcock to strain even further and I haven’t even stated to stroke or pump. Goddess I feel I am already on the edge. And then the final aroma hits me it nearly sends me out of control – it is your pussy. Oh my God that is so inviting, compelling, I just want to turn my head and bury myself deep into you inner thighs – to be able to drink in deeply that most sacred of spots. Am I aware of this because you are not wearing panties? This speculation only fuels the desire to turn round even more. But no I must not regain control. You’re bending over me and is that your breast I can feel brushing my shoulder as you begin to whisper in my ear? My body tingles as you touch my nipples, small electric shocks radiate from your fingers. There is a thumping deep inside and discover its my heart responding to your delicate touch. I am slowly stroking now, very slowing for any speed at this point will send me over the edge. My mind is saying stroke faster, come on, spill out before your Goddess but that is the voice of self (and unfortunately I have a strong voice of self). You demand I worship you as Goddess and at that point I willing shout out my utter devotion, my loyalty, my servitude, not sure whether it is deep rooted at present or whether it is only to get the release my body demands of me. Let me Cum , please let me come, I am so close, and Goddess you are soooo near. “I control your cock,’ I hear you say and I acknowledge the fact you do control my cock for your hand takes control over the actions of my hand. I am praying that I don’t cum in response to your control. Keep control, don’t lose control, You belong to Josephine, she has control now my mind is saying. Yes, I do want you not only to control my cock but to control my life. I need the discipline of someone strong, beautiful and God-like just as you are.
Your presence, warmth and bodily perfumes are still around but my (your) cock is encased in my trousers. I have an even greater desire for release now Goddess but I am aware that I need to be bound to you body and soul. I am determined to last the week – no matter what teases you place before me so that may be interviewed for acceptance into one of your long term placements
your are my Goddess,
I do submit to you
Keep control of my cock
I bow down on my knees before you because you are a superior being to me.
I recognise that I need you more than you need me
Tom
welcome thomas. hope you had a wondeful thanksgiving. if u had a cummi it would be awesome if you shared the details. sissy slut bj just loved sharing hers. toodles
Goddess,
7 days since last orgasm
Three things that make my cock hard
-CFNM tops my list today. This time its being naked and given the privilege of wanking off cumming on Goddess’s feet then kneeling to clean up my mess off Her feet.
-again CFNM. In this scene im naked laying at Goddess’s feet while she plays with Her cock with Her feet. i am not allowed to cum but She brings me to the edge again and again. If i cum without permission i will be punished. i am at Her mercy as to when or if She will allow me to cum. She wants me moaning and squirming and begging to cum.
-being on my back legs up in the air while Goddess’s uses Her strap on me and “man” handles my cock and balls making me completely helpless.
Three things that make my cock go limp
-nipple clamps
-extreme pain
-poor personal hygiene
On Saturday i made a trip to Philadelphia with MB. As she was unable to visit overnight, we met in Philly. We had a fun time visiting Eastern State Penitentiary and the “Terror Behind the Walls”. Through out the tour MB kept pushing me to the front to be the “point” as we walked through the tour.
i am currently saving extra money for Your Christmas present.
i emailed Britney, Your new sissy slave, with advice as You asked. He did ask me a few questions and i was able to help him.
For Your upcoming Thanksgiving Dinner, You mentioned You wanted candle holders and it is best that i just send You a gift card so You can order them from Amazon. Please, Goddess, let me know what You want and i will get the gift card out to You asap so You can have it by Thanksgiving.
Goddess, i will email the rest of my report as the rest is a little more personal
Your property
paul
Thank you. I’m so excited for you. I sure do miss you tho. I can’t believe we are sharing another xmas together. So what are you getting me for xmas? I think that since you got me the water filter system you should supply me with filters.
Thanks to you I get to drink awesome water every single day.
Goddess,
10 days since last orgasm
You made my day with that last comment
i adore You.
Thank you. I’m so excited for you. I sure do miss you tho. I can’t believe we are sharing another xmas together. So what are you getting me for xmas? I think that since you got me the water filter system you should supply me with filters.
Thanks to you I get to drink awesome water every single day.
Day since last orgasm: 3
Assignment satus: Day 3
This sissy air head bimbo is ashamed. i failed to report correctly. i was punished. Goddesss Josephine had me purchase a ginger root that had a girth bigger than my thumb. This sissy found one that looked like it had a penis head.i wanted to suck it but she had other plans for it. i pealed it as ordered & stuck it up my sissyhole. It broke off! my first thought was i would have to go to the hospital to get it removed. it started to get warm quick. i was able to potty it out. Back to the chalk board. i then broke off another root & pealed it & inserted it. i then stood in the corner for half an hour with it up my sissy behind. my sissy clitty was semihard and dripping precum. i then asked Goddess if i could purchase an item for her to make amends. She allowed me to purchase 2. She is truly a Goddess. She is going to have someone help me, i’m so earer to learn. The audios with the picture have me precumming. i’m so hurny i greedily lick the mixture of rasbery lube & precum off my fingers.
my biggest turnoff is my failure to follow instructions properly and therby upsetting her.
you really are a stupid little thing. I think its best I send you over to http://www.humilatedsissy.com/blog for future reporting
Days since last orgasm: 2
Assignment status: Day 2 of 7 day tease and denial audio
The pictures and audios of the beautiful Goddess Josephine have enthralled me.
i am cleaning my house all week dressed in various female garb, from dresses, to maid uniforms, to girlie nighties to sexy lingerie. This sissy must now wear panties when i am not at work. Today i was sent shopping to buy groceries so i would now eat healthy girlie food. i also purchased an iron as i was told to do. This was all done with my tampy in my sissy hole. When i didn’t have my tampy in, i usually have my pluggy in. i’m on my fourth load of laundry & went through my coupons. i still need to hand wash my sissy delicates & hang them to dry. sissy must also purchase a phone where she can take pictures that can be sent as e-mails.
It was a big turn on feeling the tampy in & having to adjust my strap to the babydoll while shopping. i felt everyone knew. the way i carried myself was much more demure. This sissy was also turned on while cleaning the house. i felt like a housewife in my pink matching panties & babydoll, and in my pink bathroom when i went into the basement to do the laundry.
i am also so excited to begin my day 3 of no squirties, listening to the alluring voice & looking at the most beautiful Goddess Josephine.
my biggest turn off is my own attitude when i dont relinquish complete contol. i have to learn to let it go.
I hope you are enjoying the audios and my email to you was helpful
Goddess,
17 days since last orgasm
10 days under review
3 things that make my cock hard:
- while inserting the butt plug imagining Goddess using a strap on me while stroking the cock She owns
- female feet with painted red toes giving me a foot job.
- crossed sexy legs
3 things that make my cock limp
-nipple clamps
- housecleaning
- poor personal hygiene
status of my assignment:
For a few days i struggled trying to find the best way to insert a butt plug. It got to the point where i was dreading it. After doing some research i came about the right idea.
i also used a bit of imagination, imagining Goddess being in the apartment with me with a strap on. The dread disappeared while inserting the butt plug as i focused on Goddess having Her way with me with a strap on.
The butt plug assignment helped reminded me of Goddess’s total control in a tangible way. Also wearing panties keeps me docile.
i continue to use the juicer. Because of it i find myself not as hungry and eating smaller meals rather than binging on a big meal.
Thank You Goddess for Your punishment.
i adore You Goddess
paul
Goddess
15 days since my last orgasm
8 days under review ( 4 more days of butt plugging to go)
three things that make my cock hard.
-Juliet Huddy’s legs (She was on Fox and Friends Sunday reporting on the hurricane)
crossed sexy legs are soooooooo seductive.
-female feet with painted red toes giving me a foot job.
- while on bathroom floor naked face down ass up inserting my butt plug in and out deeper and deeper, I started to imagine being fucked by a strap on by Goddess with Her hand between my legs stroking the cock She owned.
three things that make my cock limp
-nipple clamps
-butt plugs ( after butt plug inserted stretching my ass…cock went limp)
-disappointing Goddess
status of my assignments
i posted my essay here on Goddess’s disappointment in me.
Writing the essay made me realize that surrendering to Goddess needs to be a daily decision in order for the relationship to prosper. It is not just when it is convenient for me.
i answered bill’s questions to me in an email.
i restocked my refrigerator with greens for my juicer ahead of Hurricane Irene. Even though it has now passed my location i will hunker down in my apartment the rest of the day. i cooked Coq au Vin (chicken in wine) and made enough for the weekend.
i will spend more time today meditating.
i adore You Goddess.
How to disappoint a Goddess.
When i began my journey with Goddess Josephine, there was really only one thing required of me. And that is to surrender control to Her and follow where She leads. In surrendering control i was to pay attention to what She wanted to teach me. In surrendering control i was to obey what She orders me to do. In freely surrendering control to Her i at the same time recognized Her power over me as a woman. In surrendering control i surrender to that wonderful life giving force that only a woman can provide. And in the process of surrendering control i learn to adore and love Her.
She relishes and thrives on my surrender and subservience. And i find life and joy in serving Her and surrendering total control to Her. My submission and Her dominance are like a very special erotic dance. And it all begins with my surrender. She won’t take control. That would destroy the dynamic. i have to freely give it. In fact it is the only thing over which i have any control. My willingness to surrender control is at the heart of the relationship.
Lately Goddess has been disappointed in me. She tells me i have not been paying attention and that i have been drifting away from the total control she wanted from me when we began the journey. What has happened? The answer lay in something i learned a while ago while participating in workshops on couple communication. And in that answer lay the solution to Goddess’s disappointment and the way back to Her.
What i learned were two phrases. The first is “Feelings are neither right nor wrong they just are”. There is no right or wrong way to feel. Feelings are the core of who we are as human beings. For a couple in an intimate relationship the willingness to share and express feelings is what creates an environment for that couple to grow closer.
The other is “To love is a decision”. Love is not among the feelings that exist at the core of our being. It is not among the feelings like “fear”, “embarrassment”, “sadness” or “anger”. Love exists in my will. It does not wait for my feelings to be in sync with the decision. Imagine a couple in a long term relationship with each other saying, “I don’t love you today because I don’t feel like it.” Or “I don’t love you today because I’m too tired” or “I’m sad” or “I’m angry”. How long will that relationship last? i don’t think very long.
As it is with love so it is with trust and surrender. To trust is a decision. To surrender is a decision. In fact love, trust and surrender are almost interchangeable. About 5 months ago i agreed to surrender control to my Goddess. But is that it? No! The decision to surrender is a daily decision. What would happen to my relationship with Goddess if my attitude were “i am not feeling very submissive today, so i am not going to surrender” or “i am not going to surrender my cock to the total control of Goddess because i am feeling too horny.” That relationship would not last very long either. In fact i dare say that when i decide to surrender when i am not feeling very submissive or surrendering my cock to Her control when i am feeling exceedingly horny will bring Her more joy than if i were to surrender only when it was easy.
Thank You, Goddess for Your tough love and pointing me again in the right direction. i adore You Goddess and i surrender.
Goddess,
11 days since last orgasm (with at least 8 more to follow)
day 4 under review
3 things that make my cock grow hard
-a seductive intelligent sexy dominant woman who uses me as her sex slave
-sexy pedicured female feet with red polish playing with my cock til i cum on her feet (of course i have to lick up the mess afterward)
-tied helpless and used sexually
3 things that make my cock go limp
-butt plugs
-nipple clamps
-being punished by Goddess
status of my assignments:
i have been given a new assignment to help bill as he begins his journey into the total control program of Goddess. i emailed him and answered his questions.
i was having some trouble with inserting a butt plug. But after reporting this to Goddess, She gave me some advice. i am still having some problem finding the best position to insert it. i even researched the internet on how to insert a butt plug. By the end of my assignment i hope to be able to insert it and keep it in. Right now i have to sit down on it or hold it in or it will just slide out. And boy is my tush sore after my butt plug session is over.
On my essay assignment. It is now in outline form. i hope to post it here this weekend.
i have been juicing greens twice a day now. The effects are quite good. I am much more diligent and watching what i eat. i don’t eat nearly as much red meat as i used to.
i adore You Goddess
paul
Goddess,
9 days since my last orgasm (with at least 10 more to follow while under review and probably more to follow after that IF i pass)
day 2 under review
status of my assignments:
i wore panties and a butt plug for three hours again last night
i started work on my essay. i should have a first rough draft by tonight or early tomorrow. The theme of the essay will be along the lines of “The only control a slave has in regard to his relationship to his Mistress is choosing to relinquish total control to Her” If he chooses only when it is convenient to him then that will become a major source of disappointment in the relationship.
Today i had juice that consisted of cucumber, half green pepper, celery, romaine lettuce hearts, and an apple. i drank one glass in the morning and one when i got home from work.
i visited a couple of websites researching massages.
i adore You Goddess,
paul
Goddess,
8 days since my last orgasm
day 1 under review
assignments:
i wore panties and a butt plug for 3 hours last night. i am to do this until the end of the month.
i am to write an essay on why Goddess is disappointed in me.
i am to research on how to give massages and learn to prepare healthy meals.
i am to make more use of the power juicer. i will do it twice a day focusing on healthy greens. That way i can be a healthy slave for a Mistress and help Her become healthy as well.
i am to spend this time under review in serious reflection on what it means to be a slave to a loving Mistress.
i adore You Goddess,
paul
Days since last orgasm today
7 day tease and denial audio has been completed
Today i chatted with Goddess on phone for first time in about two months. It was wonderful to chat with Her again.
However Her cock did not perform to Her expectations. i expect to be punished for it. Eventually Goddess was able to get it rock hard. She granted me release. i disposed of the cum in the appropriate manner.
As a result She has taken firmer control. No touching, stoking or listening to audios without Her express permission.
Thank You Goddess for the chat today. And thank You for Your control. i am much happier knowing You are in control. Now i can relax and enjoy and be focused on pleasing You.
i adore You Goddess
Your property
paul
and now you get to learn how to give a pedi!
Days since last orgasm 11
Current assignment 7 days tease and denial audio
i am awaiting Goddess’s instructions for the completion of day 7.
it has been over 2 months since i last chatted with Goddess on the phone. Now that my job situation has clarified i hope we can arrange a phone call.
Today has been a whirlwind of activity. Found a new apartment here in Lancaster. It has a creek running through the property where one can trout fish. i thought of Goddess when i heard that.
Lease signing tomorrow as well as signing paperwork for new job. Then back home.
Next week i will be packing my stuff in preparation for moving day which is scheduled for June 18. Once moved in i hope to be able to do a mini vacation before i begin my new job on June 27.
Most recent erotic confession: its a recurring one. i am naked before a group of professionally dressed women who bend me over and probe and inspect me precisely as if i were a piece of meat. What a feeling of humiliation and powerlessness as i am only there for their pleasure.
Days since last orgasm 10
Current assignment 7 days tease and denial audio
Day 6 completed last night
i listened to the day 6 audio as the last event of the day. i laid naked in bed and listened. it was the most intense and tormenting of the audios. After it was over i went to sleep very horny.
Today i will be on the road to Lancaster and will await Goddess’s instructions on how She wants me to do day 7.
i adore You Goddess
Days since last orgasm 9
current assignment 7 day tease and denial audio
Day 5 was completed last night.
i listened to day 5 audio as a meditation as i lay in bed at the end of the day. There was a slow build up of sexual energy as i listened to Goddess reminding me who owns the cock between my legs. just when i was nearing the edge, it ended, i rolled over and went to sleep grateful for Her control.
The day itself was a busy one. Another job interview and planning about a move to a new location. It looks more and more that within the next 2 weeks i will be moving to Lancaster. So it will be a busy couple of weeks of packing and planning and finding a new apartment in Lancaster.
i adore You Goddess
Days since last orgasm 7
Current assignment 7 days tease and denial audio
Gift of coffee was ordered today from amazon.
Day 4 was completed today.
Of all the days in the tease and denial audio, day 4 is my favorite. That is because i can crop the picture that goes along with day 4 and zoom in on Goddess’s thighs and panty clad pussy. Now the sight, sound and imagination created engulfs me into Her control totally.
Because of that today i had a very very real experience of worshiping Goddess’s pussy. The only thing missing was the actual taste and smell. Yes i was trembling. Yes i was moaning. i was in the presence of a Goddess with my face inches away from Her Pussy, the Sanctuary from which all life comes. It was almost a spiritual experience. i felt so small and submissive in Her Presence. my current profile picture on EE is the best way i can describe the experience.
It would have felt so natural to explode in orgasm right then and there, but i was not allowed. i came back to “reality” in time to stop from going over the edge, almost to the point of having a ruined orgasm. i disposed of the precum properly and day 4 came to an end. The only thing i could say at the end was “Wow”. i took a few more deep breaths and it was over.
If you have the 7 day tease and denial audio try doing day 4 this way. If you don’t then do yourself a favorite and purchase it. You won’t regret it.
Tomorrow i have another job interview. Then after that its decision time. Where ever the job is i will be relocating there. Tomorrow is also day 5 of my assignment.
Thank You so much Goddess for making me do this assignment again.
i adore You.
Your property
paul
Days since last orgasm 6
Current assignment is 7 days tease and denial audio
Gift of a coffee package is to be sent to Goddess this week.
Day 2 was completed yesterday at bedtime.
Day 3 was completed this morning when i woke up.
Yesterday was quite an exciting day. Traveled to Lancaster Pa for a job interview. On way home i learned that they were going to make a job offer. I got so excited that i missed my exit and had to depend on the GPS on my phone to get me back on track. my 2 months of unemployment is about to come to an end.
What better way to end the day then to relax into the loving embrace of Goddess’s control as i listened to Her voice and followed Her instructions for day 2. i edged 3 times and went to bed horny but secure in the knowledge that She once again is in control of the cock and balls between my legs.
Today began the way yesterday ended, listening to the enchanting and divine voice of Goddess as She instructed me through the day 3 session. 2 more edges and very slow stroking to keep me there got me through the session without an “accident”.
i am most happy to be horny for Goddess and very grateful for Her control
4 days since my last orgasm
Day 1 Tease and Denial
it has now become part of my stroking ritual to begin by reminding myself that it is done with Goddess’s permission and to thank Her for the permission She has given me to stroke Her cock.
Today as i listened to the audio i came close to the edge 5 times. it is amazing how listening to Goddess’s voice as She instructs me and being immersed in the imagination scene She creates intensifies the experience. Edging 5 times also reinforces the truth that when a woman keeps a man on the edge and horny he is much more compliant and obedient to Her. He is also much more desirous to please Her and more attentive to Her needs. It’s like edging releases an “obedience” energy that makes him more aware of Her needs. Am i making any sense?
Tomorrow i travel to Lancaster for a job interview and sometime during the day i will listen to day 2.
Goddess thank You for day 1.
i adore You.
Your property,
paul
3 days since last orgasm.
Another musing. After over 2 weeks of preparation and study and answering practice questions, this morning i took and passed my certification exam and am now officially certified in another Microsoft Technology. With certification can a new job be far behind? i have interviews scheduled for Friday and Monday.
In the meantime LP, my alter persona, wants me to take a break and come out and play!! Goddess LP would be honored if You would suggest what form that play should take and what would please You.
Thank You once again Goddess for Your free reign permission that allows me to let LP out to play.
i adore You Goddess
Hmmmmm well ok- No cumming on your own. Start the 7 day tease and denial program. No cheating.
mmmm Thank You Goddess.
i will do day 1 on Thursday and report about it here. Unless You would rather me email.
i most definitely won’t cheat. i do appreciate Your control.
i adore You Goddess.
May 25th last orgasim
Goddess Josephine
I thought a lot about your response to my last message. I really don’t know what to respond to answer your question completely. So I am going to to give it my best chance.
As always I enjoyed our conversation as well. I always do. I do enjoy our time I enjoy you telling me what to do. I enjoy the dominance that you provide me. I do enjoy buying you nice things. As I said earlier I don’t enjoy the public sissy thing, but to push the envelope I am willing to do it, not to mention you telling me to do it. There is something about a womans voice telling me do something that make me willing to do things I wouldn’t do on my own. I have and always do enjoy that. NO matter the issue is I always respond to women better than I do men. I would have never sucked that cock if it wasn’t for you. That sensual dominance is more exciting to me that cuming. I love that feeling of being owned, being somebodies bitch boy, or being cuckold. As I said before when I was married and was cuckolded, my favorite part wasn’t so much the sex, but it was the shopping for the outfits for her with her, the planning where they would go, making the hotel and dinner reservations. All the discussing in advance, she would never let me have sex with her once a date was set. She would tie me up and masturbate tell me about what her fantasy was. It was a such a build up! Then it was the post sex! Ya being tied up then too as she fucked her self with her vibrator telling me all about. Of course she made me clean her up if she came on in time. Oh I almost forgot the text messages, there was the build up texts, but the post where the best. They would text her all day throughout the day and she would make me read them to her.
So I enjoy the dominance. I enjoy being owned. This is why I love it when you tell me dispose of my cum properly.
When I have slept with women it always taken a time or two with them before they get and in some cases allow it, but I have always enjoy it more when I make them cum first. Sometimes it was a game for me how many times I could make them cum in a evening. Yes I would use toys and different forms of masturbation on them. It was pleasing them though that was more exciting for me than cumming myself. So I always thought it would be fun to please a guy and what better way than to suck his cock. So ya it was exciting when you sent me to do it. So thats why I think about not only just sucking a guys cock, but going to bed for a guy for a entire evening, I am a pleaser. Do all the things one does in a entire evening. Not just a quicky but do it all.
Goddess Josephine I hope I answered your question.
Juicy
Trust me, I so get it and exactly the mindset that turns me on. It’s really the only true way dominance and submission can enter into a dynamic. I got wet just reading it. Thank you. Now where is my makeup?
4 days since my last orgasm
This post is more a musing than a report. i am still gratefully enjoying the “free reign” permission that Goddess has granted me. i always make sure to remember Her permission and to thank Her for it before i engage in any “stress relief”. i traveled to Harrisburg today for yet another job interview. i think i will have another interview for a different job next week. It has been two months since i became unemployed. i want a new job soon, am getting quite tired of searching.
In two weeks i will be mailing to Goddess another coffee package to satisfy Her need for coffee.
i am waiting patiently for a new assignment from Goddess, with the emphasis on patiently. Goddess has reminded me often of my need to be patient.
i adore You Goddess. Thank You for the privilege of being one of your pets that was asked to post on this blog.
ladyspet
Thursday, May 19th my last cum, Assignment Complete
Goddess Josephine
After I got home today from my trip. All I could think about was pleasing you! All I could think about was going out this evening and pleasing you!
So this evening right before I went out it stormed really bad with several tornado’s and I lost power. It really wasn’t that scary but it did give me time to think. To think about pleasing you! So ya I was worked up and it was time to go. So off to Macy’s I went! I went and picked up that cute straw purse as you instructed. I had already picked up that makeup as you requested and I knew you wanted me to go shopping carrying the purse. So of I went looking for a clothes. I found several pieces, but the looks I received was priceless. I know why you wanted me to do this now. Carrying the purse while shopping for a girly top made me even harder. I looked at several tops and it made my mind race.
I knew I had to strike while my cock was hard so off I went to the video arcade I checked out earlier today. I went in all dressed up, and payed my five dollar fee. I was hoping earlier in the evening that there would a some kind of business professional after work. And yes I was right. I walked in and there he was, dress in business casual standing there waiting on me. I walked up slowly, I was nervous but didn’t want to show it. I immediately asked me if I wanted to watch a movie and I agreed. All I could think was wow this is really happening. I wanted it to happen for so long and it was getting ready to happen. We walked in the private both and he put the money in and started a movie. All I could think WOW, this is really getting ready to happen and its a decent guy, six foot four, broad shoulders, clean, well dressed! I was always nevervous that I wouldn’t even be able to be hard at this moment, no worries I was hard as rock. He turned around and looked at me in the eyes and the next thing I know we where kissing. He then started undressing me and I feeling him out. He had my shirt unbuttoned quickly and was rubbing my cock in my jeans and I him. He kept telling me how big my cock was. Then we totally unbuttoned each others pants. This was the first time I felt another mans cock. And it felt good!! Real good!! He told me sit on a chair that was in there. Then is started sucking my cock, another first a man sucking my cock! I let him suck, but I made him stop as you told me not to cum. Then I ask if I could suck his and he gladly let me. So ya I finally had a cock in my mouth. I suck on it and suck on it! He wanted me to kiss him again and then kiss his chest, then he pushed me down to his cock and I sucked away!! Until he blew and I frankly was so excited I didn’t even realize he was doing it. He then asked if could finish me and I said no, knowing it wasn’t my cock to make that decision. So we straightened ourselves up and then I realized the movie was over, for how long I don’t know. I went out into the parking lot and waved good by to him as he drove off in his BMW.
Thank you Goddess Josephine for making me a Juicy Cock Sucker. For making my fantasy cum true!!
I had a great conversation with you and thought about it a lot since we got of the phone. You said that you do not consider yourself a sissy but enjoyed doing humiliating task for a woman. You went on to mention that although you are not into the whole public humiliation scene that you did it for me. I thought that was really cool because it meant a lot. I think it goes both ways and in order for a dynamic to happen we both have to feel connected.
anyhow, I’d love to hear more about your thoughts on this and elaborate on what we talked about on the phone. I love this name by the way. Maybe we’ll call you Juicy for short.
Last Orgasm was 3 days ago
Recently Goddess loosened Her control over my cock and balls
and gave me free reign to jerk off as often as i needed to. The reason for this
was because the stress of trying to find a new job was making me more
and more self absorbed, and my life was becoming out of balance and I needed
to get my life back on track. Masturbation became a way to relieve the stress
i was experiencing from job searching. i want to publicly thank Goddess for giving
me free reign to do this.
Today Goddess asked me to post an essay here on my reflections about the difference
between being under Her total control and being given free reign. I am happy and privledged
to do this for Her. i hope my efforts will please Her.
As i reflect on this topic, i have to realize first of all that there is also a
difference between the free reign that i was recently granted by Goddess, and the free reign
that i had prior to Goddess’ control. Prior to Her control free reign was pretty mindless. Whenever
i felt the need i just did it. Now with Goddess’s free reign permission, everytime i masturbated since
she gave me that permission, i would mentally begin by reminding myself that Goddess gave me this permission
and mentally thank Her for the privledge. This little mental ritual doesn’t last very long but it does give me
a sense of comfort and meaning and connects me with the Goddess i adore. One example in particular stands out.
I finished a phone interview for a local programming job. They asked me to come in to take a skills assessment test
on a praticular programming technology that they used. If i passed the test they would make me a job offer.
I studied for two days getting ready to take the test. When i got there the test was on a different technology than
the one i had studied. I left knowing i didn’t pass the test. I came home stressed out and burned out and frustrated.
If there ever was a time to masturbate to relieve stress this was it. Without Goddess’s free reign permission,
i don’t know how i would have handled it. But with it i was able to perform my little masturbation ritual and the next day
i was back on track.
As much as i appreciate the free reign Goddess has given me, i miss Her total control. When She gave me free reign She in
a sense returned control of the male appendage between my legs back to me until the time i am back on track and not as focused on
release. When under Her total control there is a much stronger connection than when under her free reign permission where i have
some control. When under Her total control i feel Her power much more profoundly than now. When under Her total control the feeling
that the cock and balls between my legs belonged to Her was much stronger than now. i yearn to give Her back that control. On every level
the connection i have to my Goddess is much much stronger when under Her total control than with the free reign permission i have now.
There is so much truth in the adage “control a man’s cock and You control the man”. But total control means more than just hoping for
release. It means stop being fixated on orgasm release and start focussing on the Goddess you adore even if it means never having another
orgasm ever again. Her total control might mean complete and total emasculation to free me from my male ego and my fixation on orgasm.
Whatever it means the most important aspect is that She is to be adored, Her needs come first and She is my Goddess whom i serve and
i am to serve in whatver way She wants.
Some day Goddess will end Her free reign permission She has so graciously granted me. On that day i hope i will prove worthy of Her total
control freed from the dibilitating confines of a male ego.
thank You Goddess for the privledge of serving You,
paul
very nice lady’s pet. I really enjoyed reading this. Thank you. I miss you too.
Thursday May 19th last cum, shopping partial, gifts in mailed May 24th
Monday, May 23rd
I went shopping today and purchased the Lancôme DUAL FINISH FRAGRANCE FREE Versatile Powder Makeup in color – Matte Honey, and mascara. They also gave me the bag you where wanting as well.
They closed after I purchased the makeup, so I didn’t get the Red top there. I left went to CVS and purchased the tampons as you requested. From there I went to target and purchased a flower dress top in red flowers. I really don’t like it so I may stop at Macy’s tomorrow.
Tuesday, May 24th
I had a crazy day at work with peeps all around all day. I was able to go to a Macy’s last night and look at those straw purses. I looked at red tops but couldn’t find any my size in the time I had. I want to complete the assignment and know that tomorrow would be a better day. When I checked in the hotel there was a taller guy in a business suit that was walking on the elevator. He was hot, I couldn’t help but think that they way he smiled at me that there could have been something more. I would have loved to suck his cock!
Today, Wednesday, May 25,
I drove home after my morning meeting. I stopped a adult bookstore and was disappointed it had some neat looking vibrators and butt plugs though. I kept driving into the city and stopped at another one that I knew had a video arcade. So I paid the money went into the arcade and was shocked at how big it was. It must of had 15 private rooms. It had a couple guys standing around but they weren’t very clean. I know they place gets busier in the evening. So my plan is to complete the assignment this afternoon by going to my local Macy’s and get the straw purse and a new red top. Then head to the arcade this evening. I hope I become somebody’s bitch!
I hope this pleases you Goddess Josephine!! You should be receiving it soon!
http://www.amazon.com/Hilary-Radley-Double-Dip-Tote/dp/B004EPXRPM/ref=sr_1_28?s=shoes&ie=UTF8&qid=1306365374&sr=1-28
I like that type of bag but Suzie Q is also getting me a bag. It doesnt have to be expensive just one i really like. Whoever sends me the bag I like the most will win a free text session and assignment.
I just wanted to say thanks for taking control. It was fun out doing my shopping assignments and exploring a new side of me.
Thank you!
I think you should post details and also set an example. For instance each and every time you report, email, etc. You state the number of days since your last orgasm and status of your last assignment or current:
Example:
Days since last orgasm: 6
Assignment status: Pending 1/2 done- shopping for XXX, Goddess gifts mailed on XXX, waiting to complete cock sucking task.
Most recent fantasy confession: I thought about you fucking a man while I licked your ass.
You can copy, paste, update, etc. Let’s do this right. I think everyone should know what you’ve been up to, how you feel and I want to see that essay posted here
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